Thursday, May 24, 2012

Dancing Upon Barren Land ~ Statement of Faith:

    We went to Good Samaritan Hospital bright and early yesterday morning.  I was so thankful to have an awesome team of nurses working on my case.  Although we hit a few "speed bumps" throughout the day,  the Dr. reported all good things.  Unlike previous thoughts, it was confirmed during surgery that my uterus is a perfectly shaped to carry a baby AND my right fallopian tube was not blocked afterall :)  We will go back for a post-op check up next friday and begin our fertility meds once we get the green light at our appointment.  Once again, PRAISE THE LORD, for blessing us yet again.  The past few months have been such a roller coaster of emotions.  We have been told my uterus was we prayed....We were told my right fallopian tube was we prayed.  Some of you might say "so what" but those of you who believe in our Heavenly Father know it was HE who fixed it all.  

     Once I heard the final report after surgery, I began thanking GOD for his grace and mercy HE keeps giving us.  Too often, we are skeptical if true miracles really do exist.  Yet, our journey has been nothing but miracles that our own eyes have seen.  It came to my mind that we have started this journey all wrong.  We are so focused on TRYING to conceive that we forgot one important thing: We need to STOP TRYING & STARTING INVITING.  The Bible distinctly states to "call things that are not as though they were" (Romans 4:17).  For HE is the Lord who gave a child to Abraham, we thank you, & we praise you. Seeing the tears of Hanna, HE gave her a child. Elizabeth who was barren in her old age, HE blessed her with a child.  The Almighty Lord is all powerful and merciful. There is no limit to what he can do. If we WOULD JUST pray wholeheartedly with faith, HE will bless us.  So, we decided to stop trying and started inviting a child into our lives however the LORD determines fit.  We must wait patiently for God to work his divine plan in our lives. And MOST importantly, we have to accept God’s Holy will and surrender our lives to God. 

     Our prayer now is as follows:  "Father, in Jesus' name, we thank You for our unborn child. We will treasure this child as a gift from You.  For we know, Our child will be created in Your image, perfectly healthy and complete. You have known our child since conception and know the path he/she will take with his/her life.  We ask Your blessing upon him/her and stand and believe in his/her salvation through Jesus Christ.

     When You created man and woman, You called them blessed and crowned them with glory and honor. It is in You, Father, that our child will live and move, and have his/her being. He/she is Your offspring and will come to worship and praise You.

Heavenly Father, We thank and praise You for the great things You have done and are continuing to do. We are in awe at the miracle of life You're going to place inside of me. Thank You! Amen. 
                                    "Prayers That Avail Much" by Word Ministries, Inc.


Saturday, May 19, 2012

In the Beginning....

     After much prayer, we have decided to start a blog about our fertility journey.  We would like to acknowledge our dear friends who were brave enough to share their own fertility journey through a blog, thus giving us the courage to be open about our own.   Let us start off by saying first and foremost, we stand on faith that God will bless us with a child whether naturally or through adoption.  The purpose of this blog is to allow those near and dear to us to become a close part of our journey.  It is our prayer that it will serve as a testimony and blessing to all those who read and follow it.  This is why we have chosen to share this journey of faith.  
     For those who know me closely, you know I am not one to openly share disappointments when it comes to matter of the heart.  I've always considered myself a strong, independent woman who pulls it together in the end despite the circumstances.  Yet, having the label of "infertility" seems to cut me deep and leave me at a loss for words.  My husband and I knew from the beginning that I have a condition called Polyistic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS), yet we were not fully prepared for what was to follow.  As we prepared ourselves for a difficulty journey of conception, we've encountered more stumbling blocks along that way that were never anticipated.  Over the course of the past two months,  we have endured many doctor visits, lab draws, and imaging.  Initially, we were told that in addition to PCOS, I had a heart-shaped uterus and the idea of me carrying a child was not promising.  Yet, after more testing and continual prayer it was revealed that the shape of my uterus was not misshapen but my right fallopian tube is blocked resulting in the need for surgical correction to enhance our chances of conception.  This will occur this Wednesday May 23rd.  Thus, our journey begins.
     As I was seeking the Lord's guidance to direct our fertility path, God reminded me that the good news is that although we have faced some delays in having a child, God has not denied us children.  Maybe you have gone through the same route as us, and done all you know to do, without result I still want to encourage not to give up. God will still come through for you.
     If you were to read carefully through Luke One you will see that 
Elizabeth experienced infertility and had to wait many years to have a child. Her experience is also reflective of the attitude people put on when delay appears to become a denial. Delays are frustrating and can easily make you look away from God.

     But, the blessing which was promised this couple by way of John the Baptist was unique in the sense that Elizabeth's pregnancy was rightly timed by God.  
It could not have been earlier; neither could it have been later because the child whom she bore was to be the forerunner of the Lord Jesus Christ. If he had been born at the time they desired, he would have been too old for the ministry he was called for and if he had come later, he would have been too young.

     If you experience delay in conception or any area of your life you need to understand also that some circumstances are for specific reasons and you will experience joy on the appointed day. God is meticulous about vision and that includes yours. You must know that your vision and its fulfillment are for an appointed time.  People are quick to forget that the scriptures cannot be broken, delays are never denials. God has never failed before to rescue those who look up to him.
     It is our hope that this will encourage you today to know that even though you may have experienced some delay in childbearing God still has good plans in mind for you. 

     God has promised that he will never leave you or forsake you even in the darkest hour of your life. He says to you, "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. Isaiah 43:2.