But for others, the dream of being able to give birth to a healthy, happy baby ends up being far out of reach and often unexpectedly and inexplicably so. Those struggling with infertility not only have to deal with the pain and grief of potentially never having children, but they also have to deal with ignorance and inconsideration from friends, loved ones and society in general.
Recently, I was at a friend's house for a party. I was having a great time until that dreaded moment occurred when all the other girls decided to compare notes on their pregnancies. As I watched them pull up their shirts to look at their round bellies side by side, it was hard to hold back the tears. It didn't take much time to realize I was one of the few, if not the only woman, sitting there who wasn't expecting. It was as if the house was on fire & I couldn't get out fast enough.
It wasn't long before that party that we found out that our last round of fertility didn't work. We were so excited to start a period without medication in mid-July that maybe we got our hopes up too much. This was the first time in 6 months that my body did what it was supposed to naturally. So, we tried Clomid at 50mg again since it had worked so well in the previous month. But this time, it did not work I did not ovulate. So..., we waited......and waited.....AND WAITED! The end of August was quickly approaching & I had not started my period. Could I have ovulated & missed it somehow? Was there even a tiny chance that maybe just maybe I was pregnant?But, it was finally confirmed after multiple home tests & one in the Dr.'s office that I was not pregnant. To make matters worse I had a period that lasted literally one hour & I dreaded having to take promethium again. Much to our surprise the dr considered that a periodv& gave us a prescription for Clomid at double the dose. Would third time be a charm????
Every morning & night, I took my ovulation predictor kit & day after day it was negative. Last Mon I was supposed to go to a 2 hour seminar I had signed up for yet that that morning I had Thais distinct feeling not to go. Man was I glad I stayed home: our ovulation was POSITIVE! That same day we were able to get into the dr to do an IUI.
We will see what the next few weeks brings but never lose hope for "When the world says 'give up,' hope whispers 'try one more time.'" Unknown